"Hope They Never End This Song"

When two people are in a conversation and they’ve each begun to cross examine themselves, it’s like slow dancing. Like the best kind of slow dancing. There’s nothing better, in my opinion. It’s Boz Skaggs, “Look What You’ve You’ve Done To Me,” Debra Winger and John Travolta, Bud and Sissy kinda slow dancing.

He put the needle on the record.

I hope that I’m wrong.

I hope that it isn’t baked in the cake. I’ve always loved to shop. I love to go to the supermarket. I just love shopping. Oh I love to shop. So I’m very much a... I’m very concerned with, ya know - and this seems ironic I guess, but I’m very nuanced in the way that I want to present in terms of identification with, ya know, like, that stupid broken apple thing or whatever. I mean it’s all I - before I did Confederate I wanted to do, I was gonna do, an organic fast food restaurant which I still hope I can get to before too long.

I believe that one of my fascinations was the variance and the way the brand could be expressed because it’s kindof the non-brand branding process. I don’t know. It’s all very difficult and I feel very silly saying - it seems I’m just saying it because it’s the truth so... But I mean organicism is the whole David and Goliath theme, the idea of empire and then the idea of breaking apart the empire. I think the metaphor of David and Goliath, I think there’s always a Goliath and there’s always a David. And you can’t have David without Goliath and vice versa. So I think there has to be a Harley Davidson. And there needs to be a Confederate to be here kindof lobbing stones at em and saying “you guys suck. We’re little but were cool. And you’re big and you suck.”

There has to be a big country like the United States and then there has to be a the “New United States” which might be Singapore or something. Or Ireland with its ten percent corporate tax rate now, where ours is forty two or something. Who would have ever thought that - I mean the Irish came here to be free and now Ireland’s more free than us. And so I very much want to be a non-materialist. I’m kindof dedicated at some level to being a free marketer of the non-materialist variety. Yet, at the same time, I’m a consumer. So does that mean that I’m indoctrinated? Does that mean? Yeah I mean certainly, at some level.

And I mean, I remember when I was a kid watching Bonanza with my Dad and the Chevy commercials. I love cars and motorcycles, you know. I just remember loving cars so much when I was a little kid. My dad . . .

There was a great deal of emotion in those two words: My. Dad.

There was a lifetime of respect, and trust ... admiration, Love.  There was a wistful longing that tugged at the deepest part of my sense of empathy.  There was this energy in the room that was just so innocent and pure.

It was familiar to me.  I recognized it as that part of a little boy's heart that is so delicate and true, the part of him that a Mother's prayers are designed for seeking protection over.  I thought of my nephew, and said a childless prayer of my own that he would still have access to that part of himself in as many years.

“Tell me about your Dad,” I coaxed.

Every once in a while, someone will point you toward the place in their soul where true Passion first planted a seed. This sort of once-in-a-while is an honor to bear witness to. Because if you pay attention, you’ll learn something.  Not only about that person and the world that we live in, but about yourself.

Well he was always buying new cars. He owned a Buick dealership for a long time and he just, he loved cars too so that was one of his passions. And he was a typical WWII Dad and he was a man that just - like it was pretty much like all WWII Dads. You know kids were meant to be seen and not heard. And when you talked it was okay as long as you didn’t say something stupid and then it wasn’t okay at all. Kids were not friends, ya know, Baby Boom parents like me are friends with their kids. My Dad was not my friend and he was relatively stern and kind of - he wasn’t that way in real life, but with me he was (searches) firm. And very much masculine and unyielding and he was a source. He was power, he was male energy personified, he was the yang power. My Mom and Dad were very much pure yang, pure yin, very distinct in that way.

But when my dad would get a new car ... 

The warmth of that sentence wrapped itself all the way around me like an old blanket. 

 I sometimes wonder if this isn’t the root of my love of cars. When my dad would get a new car, which would be about once every year, and he would be in a really good mood and he would be nicer to me. Everything would be more open and fun for a couple of days because he liked it. 

So that either means that he was fully indoctrinated into that kinda consumer pattern and behavior and/or I got into it. Or it is organic. I’m just gonna stay with what I’d said earlier. I do believe that just as Lord Acton said that “power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely” - I do believe that consumerism is something that is as organic as wanting to feed yourself on a regular basis when you feel hunger pains. But I could be wrong and that’s not my, I have nothing that I can pull out that says here’s where there’s scientific research that says we’re programmed to be that way. I could be wrong.

This may be an area where you’re closer to the inner circle of kinda perfecting who you really are.

This may be one aspect that I’m alluding to of my own personality where I’m ...... a long way from home.

Well... wait.  I didn't think that was true at all.  But he's a pretty good dancer, huh?

To Truth?  

To Nietzsche. 

"Dancing in all its forms cannot be excluded from the curriculum of all noble education; dancing with the feet, with ideas, with words, and, need I add that one must also be able to dance with the pen?"

"And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music."